A Rock and A Very Hard Place
I find myself in this place of extreme blessing and heart ache at the same time. A place, that I am sure we are all at from time to time, of just where I want to be and far from it! There are things in my life that make my tootsie pop heart so very happy and so very sad. I find my hands to be strong and my knees to be week, just like Adele said, at the moment. I guard myself and run for the battle with tears running down my face.
I wrote this to the Lord last night and thought that I may trust you enough to share...
My heart feels wild as my mind runs with it
You have always been there, You have always lead
Wide Open Spaces, dreams and desire
call my name
My mind runs like my lungs breath,
Why do my thoughts go so deep?
Am I over thinking?
I envy the one who can not care, I envy the one who can just let go
I need to breath you in
I need your presence to become one with my thoughts
Can I trust my own heart?
I think NOT!
For though it leads strong and loud, it runs wildly in a thousand and one different directions
I NEED, oh so desperately I need, to be steadied, to be held
Even if we are spinning around and around
at least your holding tightly.
What desires are true and good, what are from you?
I am like a forest over grown and weighed down.
Let the fire come so I can grow anew, strong and true!
Come to me while I sleep.
Speak to me there in that space and time, in that intimate place
I give myself to you, have control!
My trust is yours and so with it my fragile heart and also my life.
Trust is yours, you so deserve it, but hold me gentle for I am unsure.