I have a lot of things about me that are annoying, stupid, and so on goes the list, and some people I am sure have a longggg list against me. But for whatever reason He loves me. Jesus just keeps on keepen on with me. He sees the me I want to be and sees me for who I really am!
If it is popular or if it is not, I love Jesus and I am His!
There was a time when I was in 3d grade that my family was going through one of those HARD years. All families have them, this one was one of the hardest if not THE hardest. I was alone a lot. In a new home with most of the people I did not know. The world I had known ripped from my hands and I had no say in it. The family life I had loved and, at the age of 9 taken for grated, gone to never be back again.
It kinda felt like I was in a world full of strange giants. I was the ant lost and afraid. I wanted to have a place that I felt safe and wanted, and I found that in Jesus. During one of the hardest times of my life Jesus showed himself to me. I found my safe place to be my dreams.
One night I dreamt that I was in a field of angels as far as the eye could see. The world around me was dark as the darkest night but they were bright as the sun, with a white light. Then as I walked through them in the middle was Jesus with His arms open to hug me and a smile on His beautiful face.
Every night I had a question that I asked the Lord. I would say this side of the room is one answer and the other side of the room is the other. One side was the answer I did not want and one side was. Every night I could feel him take my hand and it would go to the side I did NOT want! I would just cry...
I was scared and lonely, I did not understand every thing that was going on and really why?! My life was controlled by strangers and loved ones who were broken. I felt like the others had just simply forgotten about me. Yet others were just to far away.
Then one night when Jesus took my hand it went to the side of the room I wanted! I asked again, and again, it went to the answer I wanted. I went to sleep happy that night and hopeful to see the answer come true, because I had NO control! With in a few days it was answered! This was just the beginning of the Lord helping me and my many trials and heart aches.
He has NEVER stopped being faithful to me!
Place me like a seal over your heart,
like a seal on your arm;
for love is as strong as death,
its jealousy[a] unyielding as the grave.
It burns like blazing fire,
like a mighty flame.[b]
Many waters cannot quench love;
rivers cannot sweep it away.
If one were to give
all the wealth of one’s house for love,
it[c] would be utterly scorned.
Song Of Solomon 8:6-7
Bless you today!