Meeting my husband was the best thing that had ever happened to me, besides meeting Jesus of course :) Then he gave me this lil girl. This lil girl that is so much like me but so much better than me! As she grew in my belly and my belly grew bigger so did my heart. I always wanted to be a mommy, one of my "dreams" but all the dreams I dreampt of her could not compare to who she is. The moment that she come out and I pulled her onto my chest all the pain was gone and my heart that had been growing just exploded with love!
How could I, who had done so much bad, be so loved by God to have this, this beautiful, beautiful, beautiful baby?! My understanding of God's love grew that day, being a mom continues to teach me about the love of Jesus for me and His people. As I nursed her and then the days, weeks, and years followed I have fallen more in love with Hadassah Life Stasi. Getting to see her as a daughter with her daddy and a big sister, a friend, and a granddaughter makes my heart happy. She loves, oh how she loves people, reminds me of a part of myself that I feel I loose a lil more and more in this hard world, but she reminds me!
Then there are those days when you want to, or I just do, run in a room screaming and shut the door because I can't deal. Can't deal with one more question, one more snack, meal or whatever hobbits call all those eating sessions, fighting or what ever else... You know what I mean, kids have this way of getting under your skin in bad and good ways. Because as soon as I am mad within minutes, even seconds I am saying I am sorry for getting mad or just hugging them and feeling guilty on the inside. Hadassah in all her beauty and perfection can really do this to me too.
If she knows that she did something bad, and she seems to have a very mature understanding of right and wrong, she always come and tells me she is sorry. She really is as sweet as a flower, so kind and thankful!
Her after she was born, all cleaned up with her Blanky :)
Her 1st Birthday
Her 2nd Birthday
Her on her 3 rd Birthday
This past year has had a lot going on so this day has snuck up and bit me in the booty . I feel like I blinked and now here it is another year gone. SIGH...TEAR... Hope that I am doing something right, at the very least I love her, I love her very deeply! I mean look at that face!
This is her beloved Cherry Blossom that along with her blanky she loves very much. We got her this bunny from Build a Bear before she was born.
This is her just a few days ago...
Here is an old blog post that I wrote about my beautiful baby girl. I think it was one of my 1st posts ever. Man I am so emotional about these birthdays I think I do this every year!!
Well off to Pancakes, coffee, ballet class and a fun birthday day:)